What You Think of Me

Most of the time, I tell myself not to care about what others think of me. Although I am conscious of myself sometimes, I believe it's not worth thinking and worrying about. But I know there are things that others may see in me that I am not aware of. Or perhaps they can see only the masks I wear sometimes.

I didn't really expect that college professors would ask their students to make something like describing yourself, or making me think what they think of me. I thought all they do is just enter the classroom, teach some lessons, and then leave. This reminded me somehow of some of my high school teachers who try to know who his students really are.

What You Think of Me (Photo not mine)

Probably, Ms. Louj Sonido will think of me as an ordinary and quiet student. I don't really participate that well in class. I only recite in her class when she calls me or when it is needed. And when I am speaking in front of people I don't know, my body shakes. I can assume that she thinks that I am a shy person. And because of these, I guess Ms. Louj doesn't really have an idea of who I am, or maybe she is having a hard time getting to know me. This is how I am every start of the school year. But when I get used to my teacher and know my classmates more, I participate in the class well.

To tell you the truth, I am different when I am with my family and close friends. For them, I may not be the shy or quiet person, but rather a talkative man. However, I prefer more listening than doing all the talk especially during class hours. And I think I have some reasons for this. I mentioned one already and that is I am not used to the teacher and the class. And because of this, I am afraid that when I speak in front of them, they will laugh and make fun of me. This is when my conscious part comes in. That is why I keep telling myself not to care about what others may think, so as to overcome my part that is preventing me to become a better person.


(Written by Justine Ace Santos)